Do you ever have a day when you just want to throw in the towel? Well I have felt that way the past two days. It is not very often that I come home in the evening on the verge of tears. I feel as though I am emotionally and physically drained. I haven't felt this way in a long time. My frustration meter has been at a 10+ and I have had a hard time dealing with some things.
This evening I was so frustrated that I could not see straight. However, there must have been a reason that I didn't have time to finish my bible study this morning and had to finish it this evening. By the time I was done, my frustration meter had dropped to about a 1. I know I have said it before, but I will say it again, it totally amazes me how God knows exactly what we need to hear or see at just the right time. It never seizes to amaze me how I will always read exactly what I need when I need it. As I was finishing up my bible study reading tonight, I just felt all of the stress and frustration leaving my body. I am still very exhausted, but at least I am no longer frustrated.
God is so good!!! I just love how He can take us from a place of despair and frustration, to a place of rejoicing. I can honestly say that my faith has grown so much in the last few months. I know that no matter what may be going on in my life, all I have to do is call on Him and He will meet me where I am. He will listen to my prayers. He will listen to me through my tears. He will surround me with His love, protection and promises. He will teach me. When I have done all that I know to do and it is still not enough, I can cry out to Him for help and He will answer.
If you would like to go from frustration to rejoicing, just call or cry out to Him and He will meet you where you are. May He bless you as you go about your day.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Start with a Seed
Over the last couple of weeks I have been attending one of Life Tabernacles satellite churches in the Paseo district of Oklahoma City. My pastor has been teaching on "Purpose". This teaching has struck a chord in me. I cannot begin to tell you how I have prayed and cried out to God to reveal to me my purpose in His kingdom. Yesterday at church, the sermon just kept speaking to me and when it came time for the alter call, I was ready. I cried and cried and asked God to please reveal to me what my purpose was, I just wanted to know.
Step back with me to a previous teaching on purpose. My pastor said that if we only start with a seed and water and nourish it, it will grow. Then that growth will take us to another level. Yesterday he was talking about how when a stalk of wheat grows, during the winter we will not see much growth on the topside. However, something amazing is going on underground. Not until the rain comes during the right season will the wheat finally grow to its full height. The same is with our purpose. We must be faithful to God and serve Him with all that we are and at the right time and at the right season we will begin to see all that we have been waiting on.
I spent the afternoon outside enjoying the beautiful weather and reading all of my blogs on "The Pantry". There were times when I was reading that I honestly couldn't remember writing some of those things. I also realized while reading, how free my spirit seemed to be. I could truly see in my words the words of God. Here is where it gets interesting. I have always wanted to write, so I started this blog. God gave me the name "The Pantry" and also showed me what the meaning was to be. Yesterday as I was praying and crying out for my purpose, writing kept coming to my mind. Last night after getting home from church I wrote my first blog in 40 days. Up until that point, my heart had been heavy and I felt as though I was carrying a huge weight on my shoulder and I was, the burden that I needed to write. After writing that blog last night I felt such a sense of peace and comfort that I cannot explain and my heart was happy once again. As I read the blogs earlier, I could see and feel in my spirit that this is my purpose or at least part of my purpose that God has for me.
So you see, I started with a seed, when I began this blog. I have tried my best to water and nourish it. I have remained faithful to God and He has rewarded me with this passion to write. Thank you Lord, for reveling my purpose to me. What is your purpose? Plant a seed in your life and see where He will take you.
Step back with me to a previous teaching on purpose. My pastor said that if we only start with a seed and water and nourish it, it will grow. Then that growth will take us to another level. Yesterday he was talking about how when a stalk of wheat grows, during the winter we will not see much growth on the topside. However, something amazing is going on underground. Not until the rain comes during the right season will the wheat finally grow to its full height. The same is with our purpose. We must be faithful to God and serve Him with all that we are and at the right time and at the right season we will begin to see all that we have been waiting on.
I spent the afternoon outside enjoying the beautiful weather and reading all of my blogs on "The Pantry". There were times when I was reading that I honestly couldn't remember writing some of those things. I also realized while reading, how free my spirit seemed to be. I could truly see in my words the words of God. Here is where it gets interesting. I have always wanted to write, so I started this blog. God gave me the name "The Pantry" and also showed me what the meaning was to be. Yesterday as I was praying and crying out for my purpose, writing kept coming to my mind. Last night after getting home from church I wrote my first blog in 40 days. Up until that point, my heart had been heavy and I felt as though I was carrying a huge weight on my shoulder and I was, the burden that I needed to write. After writing that blog last night I felt such a sense of peace and comfort that I cannot explain and my heart was happy once again. As I read the blogs earlier, I could see and feel in my spirit that this is my purpose or at least part of my purpose that God has for me.
So you see, I started with a seed, when I began this blog. I have tried my best to water and nourish it. I have remained faithful to God and He has rewarded me with this passion to write. Thank you Lord, for reveling my purpose to me. What is your purpose? Plant a seed in your life and see where He will take you.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Back on Track
Have you ever felt like a trail that has derailed? I have. I just looked back and it has been 40 days since I last posted. I guess on September 13, my trail derailed and it has taken me this long to get "back on track". Oh, how I have missed my writing and reading your wonderful comments. I have thought so many times about sitting here and writing, but I just never seem to have the time. (Or should I say, I haven't made the time.) I am here to tell you that now that I am "back on track", I plan to stay here.
Why do you think sometimes it takes us so long to get "back on track" after we derail? I know for me, it simply is ME. I have no one or nothing to blame for this, just myself. We are the only ones that are in control of what we do or don't do. We are given the opportunities, but we don't take them. We are given the resources, but we don't use them. We are given the time, but we don't take it. We are given the vision, but we don't see it. Why? Are we afraid of failure or disappointment? I can honestly say yes to both of those. I am always afraid of being a failure or being a disappointment to my family and friends. I am my own worst enemy. But I learned tonight that I must release the burden of ME and I did.
I know that God has a plan and a purpose for my life. I know that He wants to use me in a way that I have not yet discovered, but I am working on it. He has made my life anew. The last few weeks have been very trying for my flesh, but my spirit has been learning and being filled with God's word. So even though I have been derailed, I have been being repaired.
There is so much more I want to write about, but I will close for now. I would like to leave you with this, think about a time when you were "derailed". Was it hard to get "back on track"? Did you have the opportunity to have some repairs done? If not, it is never to late to make those repairs to your life, all you have to do is ask Him.
Why do you think sometimes it takes us so long to get "back on track" after we derail? I know for me, it simply is ME. I have no one or nothing to blame for this, just myself. We are the only ones that are in control of what we do or don't do. We are given the opportunities, but we don't take them. We are given the resources, but we don't use them. We are given the time, but we don't take it. We are given the vision, but we don't see it. Why? Are we afraid of failure or disappointment? I can honestly say yes to both of those. I am always afraid of being a failure or being a disappointment to my family and friends. I am my own worst enemy. But I learned tonight that I must release the burden of ME and I did.
I know that God has a plan and a purpose for my life. I know that He wants to use me in a way that I have not yet discovered, but I am working on it. He has made my life anew. The last few weeks have been very trying for my flesh, but my spirit has been learning and being filled with God's word. So even though I have been derailed, I have been being repaired.
There is so much more I want to write about, but I will close for now. I would like to leave you with this, think about a time when you were "derailed". Was it hard to get "back on track"? Did you have the opportunity to have some repairs done? If not, it is never to late to make those repairs to your life, all you have to do is ask Him.
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